Abundance of flaws.

There are many problems with me.

When I like things, I don't just like things. I love things. If I get into a television show I have to watch every episode of every season and learn facts about each of the cast members. (Ask me David Schwimmers' middle name)

When someone doesn't like me it gets to me. It's upsets me to no end. I try so hard to be likable. I get that you date my ex, but why do you hate me? Obviously we're kinda alike. We have the same taste here.

I love God so much. I have no earthly idea how to show it. I think about him every moment, but how do I talk to my friends about him? He is the greatest father, forgiver, and healer any of us could imagine.

I want to act for the rest of my life. Is is unrealistic? Yes. Will I try? Totally. And the worst part is, I know I'm not the best at it. I know I'm not pretty/thin/wild enough to really thrive but I'm gonna try. I've gotta try.

I cycle my relationships. I have been interested in the same 4 boys since I was in 7th grade with very little variance. I try to reach out. I hang out with new guys, but when I'm in my car singing fall out boy, there's no way I'm thinking about any of those new boys.

I am uninterested in exploring the depths of my mind. I am so happy with my ignorance. I am so content not watching adult movies, not having adult conversations, and listening to the same albums over and over again.

Talking to strangers is so easy. Skin deep friendships are so easy. Love, even in the simplest form, is so hard to come by. The only person I truly love is slowly loosing her mind, and then she won't know who I am. What will I do then?

There are so many things wrong with me. I talk way too loud. I am a terrible driver. I'm way too interested in other people's lives. I'm far too selfish. I will never be able to please The Lord. But I just gotta keep trying. Maybe this will help.