Random thoughts and bad transitions

I long for a life full of comfortable feelings. The kind of nights where it's comfortable with the windows down. You're going five miles under the speed limit. You aren't thinking about things, but about life.

Growing up. Growing into my own skin. It's all so stressful, but it shouldn't be.

Every single day I have to trust in God. Trust that he is making all things work together for my good. That he would never give me more than I can handle. That he hold my future in his hands.

The truth of it all is: I am the hair in your bathroom sink. I am the stubborn stain on your dinner plate. I am the jelly at the bottom edges of the jar (preferably strawberry.)

I will never be impressive. I can't impress you, or even come close to meeting your expectation. No amount of make up, work outs, calories counted, or trendy clothes will make me look the way I want to look.

I can only be Megan. I fully depend on God for everything. He is becoming greater and greater and I am becoming less and less.

Fully transparent: I can only sing like Adele in the car and the shower. I require affection to be happy. I lie. I care what people think of me. I am not sure what I want to do with my life. I worry I will never fall in love. 

It's impossible for me to make it on my own. That's why I've stopped trying, and it's a great decision.

A God Complex

It blows me away how people truly believe the rest of us on earth were put here slowly to do things for them and make their lives easier.

You know what? I don't do that. I don't boss people around and act like I'm too good to do anything for myself and I deserve the recognition that you should wait on me. That's insane. Why would you want to be that person? 

I, obviously, don't let these types of people take advantage of me, because I'm not passive, but I do know people who fall victim to this arrogance DAILY. It makes me sick and there are people who think they deserve everything handed to them with no work at all. 

Call me arrogant I guess, but I wish everyone had my mentality. 

Yes. I will help you with whatever you need, but not because you've commanded me to, or because I owe it to you, but because I want you to prosper and be happy. 

Why in the world does everyone have to put their own selfish agendas above those who are around them. Who cares what you have to do, as long as it works out for me, everything is fine.

Kindness is way too hard to come by these days.